February 15th, 2002

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Valentines Day. My least favorite day. When you go long enough with out someone, you grow used to it. It just stops bothering as much. Being alone is and probably always will be the way I am. I am good with that I guess. I am not the hormonally challenged lad I was10 years back. All in all I am cool with it.

Except on Valentines day.

It is the one day a year it is not okay to not have someone to love. It is a day of sappy sentimental making googoo eyes at people. The day I get reminded that I am not someone elses special place. For the record in case there was any doubt. Yes I do know what it is like to be in love. But unlike the romanticnotions that some of my charicters may espouse, love does not always win. Sometimes you walk away unhappy.

Maybe I dont have to alone. Maybe I prefer that pleasent mediocrity. Maybe it is easier than getting hurt again. Maybe I am a coward.

Maybe I just said to much. But hey I started this to vent.

Oh well it is in the end just another day. All in all it was a nice day. The sun was out but it wasn't hot. The call volume was down and I had nothing to difficult to deal with.

I guess i will stop ranting now but hey it is fun.