May 3rd, 2007

GAH!!!!

So I am feeling burnout today. My mind is in a dreadful place with nothing but spikes of irritation, annoyance, and anger. I hate my job lately due to the inequities of it. Seniority and merit apparently have less to do with advancement as being cute or someone other people go and party with. I hate the people I have been talking to.

My hobbies have their own annoyances as well, which I will not go into. Suffice it to say even the things I normally enjoy working on are irritating the crap out of me.

I am annoyed by the slowness of progress on my weight loss and getting into shape. I am annoyed at my own inadequacies in this regard. I am annoyed at my writing not coming as easily over the past few days. I am annoyed I have not tried to right fiction in a while due to other projects.

I am angry with myself for my lack of progress. I am back in the feeling of being trapped and it is driving me nuts. I hate this. I know I will get past it eventually, but right now I in fight mode. I want really lay into someone or something.