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I am trying real hard, but it feels like I am not.

I am an asshole sometimes.

Yes I do notice even if I play like I don't. I know it is preferred.

Can you be so used to being alone that you just stop trying.

Is this the literary equivalent of ransom?

I want to get into a fight.... a knockdown drag out, bleeding knuckles, feeling like your alive sort of fight.

There are days work drives me crazy and there are days it makes really happy.

Ever feel alone in a crowd?

I am a different person at work than I am when hanging out. Sometimes I forget I am not at work.

I am not completely okay, but I am doing better.

Why is there so much anger over such minor things?

Why am I not angry over something?

Still looking for my missing passion.

Breathing.

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fireshaper87
Dec. 17th, 2008 06:36 am (UTC)
I am trying real hard, but it feels like I am not. To whom?

I am an asshole sometimes. We all are. You are not alone.

Yes I do notice even if I play like I don't. I know it is preferred. I feel that I am missing something here.

Can you be so used to being alone that you just stop trying. Yes, and that's usually when you find someone.

Is this the literary equivalent of ransom? Probably, but we love you and don't mind.

I want to get into a fight.... a knockdown drag out, bleeding knuckles, feeling like your alive sort of fight. See if there's a Krav Maga studio near you. It's the martial arts they teach to the Israeli Defense Force, and (at least at the studio I go to) they actually expect you to beat the craqp out of each other.

There are days work drives me crazy and there are days it makes really happy. You have no idea how much I sympathize with you. I work at JoAnn's Fabrics. We just went through Halloween, then Black Friday (which for us was Black Weekend), plus all the people who want to get fabric to decorate their house for holiday parties. I sympathize completely

Ever feel alone in a crowd? Yes. When this happens I generally attempt to find a somewhat secluded area. Surprisingly enough, actually being alone helps. (for me anyway...)

I am a different person at work than I am when hanging out. Sometimes I forget I am not at work. Sometimes I forget that I am at work.

I am not completely okay, but I am doing better. Good. *hugs*

Why is there so much anger over such minor things? Because humans are petty, and always believe that the other person is wrong.

Why am I not angry over something? Because, in general, it's anger or depression, not both.

Still looking for my missing passion. That's the problem with being told about "destiny" and "Happily Ever After" as an impressionable youngster. You tend to believe they're true and will find you.


Breathing. Well, you damned well better be!
technoir
Dec. 17th, 2008 12:38 pm (UTC)
This is just a random string of thoughts. Things I didn't say or thoughts that hit me. I do it as an exercise and a bit of catharsis. I am not in fact overly depressed. Just a lot of random things floating around.

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