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I am trying real hard, but it feels like I am not.

I am an asshole sometimes.

Yes I do notice even if I play like I don't. I know it is preferred.

Can you be so used to being alone that you just stop trying.

Is this the literary equivalent of ransom?

I want to get into a fight.... a knockdown drag out, bleeding knuckles, feeling like your alive sort of fight.

There are days work drives me crazy and there are days it makes really happy.

Ever feel alone in a crowd?

I am a different person at work than I am when hanging out. Sometimes I forget I am not at work.

I am not completely okay, but I am doing better.

Why is there so much anger over such minor things?

Why am I not angry over something?

Still looking for my missing passion.

Breathing.

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bichee_face
Dec. 19th, 2008 03:03 am (UTC)
I'll tackle this one point by point.

I am trying real hard, but it feels like I am not. :
Why does it feel like you're not? Really pick through it. When I'm trying, but feel like it's not enough, it's either that I've dumped too much on myself or am not, in fact, pushing myself like I could be.

I am an asshole sometimes.
Yep. We are all flawed. I think that it builds. I think it's something everyone (including myself) should keep in check better - the world would be a better place and we could give peace a chance and all that. Ultimately, you just have to throw yourself into doing better, or at least, that's the best answer I've come up with thus far.

Yes I do notice even if I play like I don't. I know it is preferred.
Me too - the dust bunnies are at it again.

Can you be so used to being alone that you just stop trying.
Well, technically this is a question, not a statement. That aside, yes, you can, and it's VERY healthy to be happy with being alone. It's cliche, but you have to be happy by yourself, because adding someone else to that equation won't really improve things in the long run.

Is this the literary equivalent of ransom?
Ten sentences or the kitten gets it!

I want to get into a fight.... a knockdown drag out, bleeding knuckles, feeling like your alive sort of fight.
May I volunteer Clay? I'll keep score.

There are days work drives me crazy and there are days it makes really happy.
Same here. Most days are a combination of both. I think this is pretty typical. I think we should have some kind of aggro-reduction methods though for when one of us is getting overstimulated and annoyed (admit it - we all get that way).

Ever feel alone in a crowd?
Yeah. Probably because they used to give me panic attacks. I still hate them.

I am a different person at work than I am when hanging out. Sometimes I forget I am not at work.
You are. I like the not-work McCoy better. Make bidness McCoy more like him. :-p

I am not completely okay, but I am doing better.
No one is completely okay. Functionality is the goal, and you clearly have that, so everything else is cake.

Why is there so much anger over such minor things?
Because we live in a society where we're never really taught to express aggression in positive ways, only that aggression itself is bad. Well, that and they really don't bring us enough tasty treats at work.

Why am I not angry over something?
Idk, but I can come over there and piss you off or something if it'll make you feel better.

Still looking for my missing passion.
I can't help with this, only encourage you. Coming from someone who's career goal is forensics because the living suck, a lack of advice is probably a good thing.

Breathing.
Eleven of ten medical professionals recommend it.

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